"Drinking is an emotional thing. It joggles you out of the standardism of everyday life, out of everything being the same. It yanks you out of your body and your mind and throws you against the wall. I have the feeling that drinking is a form of suicide where you're allowed to return to life and begin all over the next day. It's like killing yourself, and then you're reborn. I guess I've lived about ten or fifteen thousand lives now." - Charles Bukowski
Sometimes I feel like I'm drifting through a hazy daydream. Drinking has become so familiar in our lives, that we rarely stop to question its benefits.
Why do we drink in the first place? Charles Bukowski says, "If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget; if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate; and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen." So there you have it. We have an excuse to drink for essentially any given situation.
And why not? I love grabbing a beer with a friend and catching up with each other. Or sharing a bottle of wine with a girl while watching Netflix on a couch. Maybe the occasional cocktail to celebrate something special.
But as the days bleed into one another, I feel my mind becoming clouded and rusty.
Then again, alcohol could also help spark an idea from time to time. Journalist Eric Weiner writes how "alcohol decreases inhibition and, for some at least, opens creative channels otherwise shuttered." So I don't want to adopt a puritan mindset and shun the benefits of alcohol. However, I'm wary of rationalizing an unhealthy dependence on this substance.
I'm going to try and take a break for awhile. Maybe a month without drinking. Just to prove to myself that I can do it. This will give my body a great chance to detox and reset. I'll see if my mind becomes sharper and more alert. I'm tired of muddled thinking and hungover headaches.
Anything can be addictive, and sometimes we fool ourselves into thinking that we're not dependent. Taking a break for a while can give you the chance to check in with yourself and see where you really stand. Ultimately, you're in control...and sometimes you need to take the reins and prove that to yourself.